Its not Empty

e m P t Y

Tried to write a letter; In ink
I've got a piece of paper; But it's Empty

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Saturday, April 25, 2009 ( 10:42 AM )

Haha in the end i like this better, so that when i upload pictures it will look nicer in the white back ground :D

They told me i was sunburnt yesterday but i didnt believe and told them its just rosy. but this morning i woke up to find my red nose peeling. Hais.

i forgot to bring home a tons of things, so i guess i will be quite guiltily free this week. Ahhh i hate myself.

there's something taking a large space in my head. its taking such a large space and it refuses to go away. i am so annoyed with myself.

Stop it & concentrate!

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Saturday, April 18, 2009 ( 8:28 PM )

Today at the E.lit Seminar i saw three primary schoolmates and two of them were 6G :D Esther hoon and Kejun! i said hello to Esther Hoon and she commented on me for being still as short ): everyone else is shooting up except me DD: Doctor Poon is really good at unseen! Her lecture is really rather helpful. A pity there's no seminar on whale rider and i got to spend my time waiting while the Mid Summer Nights seminar is on.

i remembered my house is having some small scale renovation today so i decided to sms Jayme and join her her studying session with Debbie! Instead of listening to all the gong bong pong zeee at home, which will definitely me out of my life. Luckily i found HaiChing and Kialin to wait with me if not i dunno how am i going to survive waiting alone ):

my lunch was so yummy and satisifying. At first we went Mos but no space. we saw ah na with alicia. they wanted to go Yoshina( i dunno how to spell) and i stop them at the Fish Market and haha WE WENT IN :D and ate happily in there. Their fish is really deeee-delicious, go try!
I think Debbie like studying with me cause i am such a good studying partner who ensures everybody studies instead of playing around and gossiping around. Really! both of them.. Immediately after i left them to sit together and went to the table to do my work, they started talking. Tsk! Debbie is such a country girl. She is a such a bukit timah girl. she didnt go bishan library before *faints* and she doesnt know where is hougang kovan lorong ah soo. like oh my goodness not even hougang?!

I had fun irritating jayme today and i think i am a very obervant person *wink wink*
but i think its not really productive for me bcos i feel like sleeping half of the time. Perhaps bcos we were sitting on the floor..

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Friday, April 17, 2009 ( 11:11 PM )

How come Ang Mo Kio has so many strange people? i have met quite a few unpleasant encounters since i entered secondary schools >:(
Its all their fault la! Weishan wants to show off her *ahem* and Christine went to bring up the Genting thing. okay la next time i dont wear those when i go out with you all la! Tsk tsk! weishan and zhuer apparently got so excited and interested and invited some unwanted attention ):

Seh Bei Bei >:(

i love so many people in school! how i wish i can have lily tan's lessons everyday and how i wish mrs goh teach instead of being the VP. then perhaps i will be lucky enough to get her :DD im currently working very hard to complete mrs tian's hw! but its so tough.hahaah she praise me that day. i beamed from ear to ear the whole day! perhaps she has already forgotten that she praise me but i will always remember it! i mean.. she praises like once in a million years :D hahaah!

and i think our school is doing very well this year. we have already ot 2 GWH and i heard agym (or izit rgym) came in first!

man, i just remembered i got elit seminar tmr! goodnight :)

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Thursday, April 09, 2009 ( 10:24 PM )

After listening to miss Du talk, i love our dear - even more than ever.
she's seriously so nice and care about us so much. i love her! at least i did wanted to sms mr ong to thank him cause we only have his number,but in the end i didnt cause i didnt dare haha. they are so super nice <3

but my band life is ending soon): in about 1month plus.. D:
i will miss lots of people and my life is gona feel empty again, like how i feel after SYF.

i like to find a nice cosy place, sit down and have heartwarming chats with the people im close to in band. we will talk about lots of stuff and gossip about lots of stuff. i love those times (: like how mountain and me were having heart to heart talk before we sleep on genting. i like that sort of stuff :D and it is a great way of improving and strengthening friendships. i love those nice people so much! im very glad im in band, in wonderful clarinets (: how i wish someone can be my video taker and video my whole wonderful band life. even though there were indeed ups and downs, but now you look back, we have come so far (: i still remember how our dear- ALWAYS send me out when i was in lower sec, like almost band prac she will send me out. and i was so super sad ): now i am glad things have become better. and to those who are still getting constant scolding, it will stop one day, like how my did! jiayou (: and i got to thank cassandra for managing to persuade me not to quit and for encouraging through my tough times in band (:

It feels so awesome to be history makers. i think we really change the impression of the school on us. kudos to us and the juniors are really lucky! i wonder where will go at the end of the year.. and what big performances they going to have.. im jealous!

if mrs goh is gonna join us in our dinner, i will be so happy till i will probably go crazy. i was like so jealous of yiinghuey that day. she sat beside her and gave her a pat or something. i bet she said some encouraging words or nice stuff to her. for the first time, how i wish i was the band major! )))):

Labels: band life, our dear conductor

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Wednesday, April 08, 2009 ( 4:11 PM )

i think i am starting to grow fat. i am eating so much, like really SO MUCH ):
i am feeling hungry at 8 plus even though i eat breakfast at 6 plus. i am feeling hungry at 3 plus even though i ate lunch in school at 2?! like oh my goodness! im like such a big eater these days! my stomach is getting so big )): let me tell you the number of meals i eat:
1. breakfast
2. 9am break ( i eat, really eat lots)
3. recess
4. lunch
5.dinner
6.dinner again( sometimes, supper?)

SIX MEALS like oh my! no wonder my stomach is protruding out man ):

someone wrote stuff on my diary. i was thinking the person probably scribble on the wrong diary. yeah, that should be the case(: cause i mean i dunno any person called : _____ it is freaking me out ):

i am addicted to the song on weishan blog. its damm nice <333
Pinky finger! Sori sings so nice inside! i want to learn how to sing :D i cant find the lyrics anywhere ):

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Saturday, April 04, 2009 ( 1:31 PM )

I have been dreaming every night these few days.
that day i was feeling sad and scared and i got a nightmare which was so frightening! and somehow my dreams always dont make sense. i dreamt that a big black flying cloud which had eyes and mouth( resembles some pokemon) is chasing me for my life. and that dream was so tiring, i was running for dunno how long around the whole school from level to level.

that day i was dreaming of a couple of band people. in fact i have been having a lot of dreams about those blue bandits that i am closer to then sometimes some people that i dont like will come in. then i start to ponder about pop, then i will feel sad...
to think that when i was in sec 2 i almost wanted to quit.

i thought the GWH was going to mark off my band life on a high and happy note. weishan was crying bcos she was thinking that was our last competition and she was feeling sad. and she was hugging me and crying and started saying some sad stuff and got eyes into my tears. to think although the jurney to syf preparation was tough and not that easy, but it was somehow enjoyable now that you look back and think about it.
i dunno how others think but i think sometimes i really feel sorry for our dear -. i dunno but i thought she's nice. and sometimes i really feel sad for her when you look into her eyes and thought that her eyes look extra glittery and shining today. i dunwan her to feel embarrassed and sad. i want her to be happy for our gwh. i want to leave a happy and heart warming story behind.

i want to end everything on a high and happy note...

they say time will heal everything
but no love will heal everything...

Labels: our dear conductor, syf