Its not Empty

e m P t Y

Tried to write a letter; In ink
I've got a piece of paper; But it's Empty

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Sunday, July 06, 2008 ( 2:24 PM )

yesterday i went spca flag day with chen and haicihng (: and we went plaza sing then there is this big big forest looking place then there are guards and policemen outside patrolling. sarah chen told me inside, there is this big big building for the president. i feel so like blur, president building jsut beside plaza sing. so i dont really trust what she say. then when we were asking some angmoh for donations, they asked what what was the building.
angmoh: ohh wht is this building?
sarah: *look at me, stare for 5 seconds* ohh.. the president.. lives inside!
angmoh: oh the president lives inside? *not really convinced*
giok: something like that~

obivously if we will never pass as a tourguide. later i went to ask haiching. she told me the president hold important meetings there~ like so big difference. the president lives there and they hold important meetings there /:
and i have fun waving to those shutter buses. you know those like hippo buses or duck or something for tourists to sit and take a short tour. suntec have those. and those buses were simply filled with angmohs! and i got very excited and everytime i see one pass by, i wil wave very excitedly and smile at them.
the first bus went pass, nobody bothered to look at me..
the second bus went pass, they just stare at me..
THIRD bus, there was this angmoh teenager staring at me, and in the end he waved back! :D i think he was in somekind of shock, cause i saw his mouth slightly open ):

i have been thinking alot alot..
previously i have always been taken care of by someone and im very used to it. i guess im just not used to take care of someone instead now. last time it has always been, i just enjoyed myself and thats enough, but now i realise i have got an add on to just feeling happy myself. i goto spread that happiness to everyone and make sure they are as happy as me. i guess im just, perhaps, yes i admit, a bit pampered and spoilt, who just someone to take care of me. i realise it must have been a tough year for you then, having to take care of so many people. and in your own ways, you are still doing it now. i guess thats what make us like you so much.
i got to remind myself im not the youngest anymore, and i will learn from you and start taking care of people. i will see how its goes after a week or a month. here comes motherly giok~ how unusual and weird of me!
(: