Its not Empty

e m P t Y

Tried to write a letter; In ink
I've got a piece of paper; But it's Empty

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Sunday, July 27, 2008 ( 3:51 PM )

presenting to you my newest idol :D
Connie Talbot

she is only 7 or 8 this year and her singing is already this powerful. she is so pretty and cute(: i WANT HER ALBUM

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Wednesday, July 23, 2008 ( 11:23 PM )

i went to collect my photos today and again i got an unpleasant experience at the photo shop once again. one AUNTIE pass them to me and ask me to check. so i presumed its whether the number of photos are correct so i started counting them. another AUNTIE saw and asked:" Ah girl, counting the photos ar? you scared not correct ar?" ( translated directly from Chinese to English)
i just ignored her >:(
now came this delivery man and greeted them: ' 美女' ~
they don't deserved that! >:(

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Tuesday, July 22, 2008 ( 8:03 PM )

im worried. hopefully i am just being paranoid.

things are starting to get tough):

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Sunday, July 20, 2008 ( 11:23 PM )

tomorrow is yet another new week. i have decided now that NBC is over, i shall shift my focus back to my studies. i really need to, if not the school is gona kick me out of triple science ): my tutor is right.
i feel happy, today he didnt scold me. i think it was because i did my homework(: and it was quite well done. if not he will scold me and give me some black face. and my mom mock at me for that >:D
more homework to be done tmr! i didnt manage to complete my homework this week. yay i can collect my photos on Wednesday(: but i am very sad, a lot gona turn out poor quality. its the way i saved it i think or maybe its the camera fault. by the way the photo shop at ang mo kio central has really bad service. firstly, they dont smile, they sort of keep rushing you, they keep asking me if im done then give me a black face. today i saw 2 ladies in the shop and both faces look equally black. im serious. luckily i was in a good mood but not my rest of the day would have been spoiled by them >:( rawr rawr.

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Friday, July 18, 2008 ( 3:46 PM )

it feels weird, i am going home at like 2pm on a Friday afternoon! and i actually reached home before 3 today(: it seems a long time since i last reached home so early! somehow it doesnt feel like its gonna be Saturday tomorrow. another week i survived(: somehow how hard it is, you will still survive!
after this week assembly, i saw the dance girls wearing the look like Korean traditional costume. i feel very tempted to buy one myself! it looks so nice! i remember when i went Korea when i was K1, the person only allow us to wear that costume and take picture if you pay $50. that is like so expensive so in the end my mom didnt allow me to take):
CCA resumed next week, luckily next week don't have much test(:

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Wednesday, July 16, 2008 ( 10:57 AM )

i am sick,
so i stay home today.
i sms june ng in the morning,saying i cant jog with her. i bet she is very happy and today she must have jogged at the speed of a snail without me asking her to go faster /:
i hope i dont need to take any re-test for my spelling. do i? i got MC! do i need to retake my chinese spelling?

O level listening oral yesterday was terrible. it was so much harder compared to last year's. but i compared answers with the smartest person in my class and only 1 answer was different from her, and the rest are all the same (: YAY!

back to my bed, ciao!

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Sunday, July 13, 2008 ( 5:24 PM )

YAY we got the shiny GOLD :D
im glad and so so relieved. i was really so worried when i step put of the hall. cause i was like walking last in the clarinet section and everyone behind was talking about the squeaks, and they specifically stated clarinets' squeaks. and they rant on and on about those squeaks. but i didnt squeak then the moment i turn behind and look at them, they started ranting to me about our squeaks. they then i was thinking if we didnt get the gold, they are sure gona blame it on us. well im super relieved the gold still came (: thank you so much, judges! i think we are really blessed.
Cassandra came to watch us(: and she was wearing pink and white, really nice! i think her sms gona exceed, mass send so much! haha!
and i managed to get a nice brass advertisement paper even though im a woodwinds. im feeling very proud of myself. Heee, i guess that guy has no choice but to give it to me. i was staring at him, then i walk past and i stop then i started smiling. of course he got to give me right, haha!

section lunch at j8 where we waited for the results together, and the lady got to came over to tell us to keep our volume down when we received the results. haha, im sorry. we forgot we are in public XD

the only thing im not very happy is, i lost my thumbrest in the process /:

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Friday, July 11, 2008 ( 9:20 PM )

NBC in 2 days /:
i hope its doesnt rain on that day and i hope it wont be cold in there. today the band room was really cold and my fingers got a bit numb then i couldnt run my notes properly. then today thirds, only me, yexin and xinlin was playing. then i got really happy and felt so complimented when debbie and jayme say the thirds sound better than the seconds :D jayme was sick so she just sat there and karyn got to usher the parents for her cohort meet the parents!
BUT next week, there is no cca for the MAIN band :DD we got a one week break, good time for me to catch my with my work (: i have been doing badly for my tests and lacking behind in my homework and my eye bags are getting darker and darker. one week break is just what i need (:
i hope everything will turn out well on Sunday
i really really really hope she brings the reed tmr, oh please!

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Tuesday, July 08, 2008 ( 4:42 AM )

I realized I look short in every photo that i take with june, this is horrible.
one of the reasons is because she wear those heels to make herself even taller cause she see me wearing some half inch shoes. she just cant bear to just make herself look shorter than me. she dont even give me a chance to let me be same height as her, meano ):
youth day is pretty much of a homework day for me. cause i have been going out and playing computer and watching tv the past 2 days D: im a horrible slacker ): i need someone to take control of me.

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Sunday, July 06, 2008 ( 2:24 PM )

yesterday i went spca flag day with chen and haicihng (: and we went plaza sing then there is this big big forest looking place then there are guards and policemen outside patrolling. sarah chen told me inside, there is this big big building for the president. i feel so like blur, president building jsut beside plaza sing. so i dont really trust what she say. then when we were asking some angmoh for donations, they asked what what was the building.
angmoh: ohh wht is this building?
sarah: *look at me, stare for 5 seconds* ohh.. the president.. lives inside!
angmoh: oh the president lives inside? *not really convinced*
giok: something like that~

obivously if we will never pass as a tourguide. later i went to ask haiching. she told me the president hold important meetings there~ like so big difference. the president lives there and they hold important meetings there /:
and i have fun waving to those shutter buses. you know those like hippo buses or duck or something for tourists to sit and take a short tour. suntec have those. and those buses were simply filled with angmohs! and i got very excited and everytime i see one pass by, i wil wave very excitedly and smile at them.
the first bus went pass, nobody bothered to look at me..
the second bus went pass, they just stare at me..
THIRD bus, there was this angmoh teenager staring at me, and in the end he waved back! :D i think he was in somekind of shock, cause i saw his mouth slightly open ):

i have been thinking alot alot..
previously i have always been taken care of by someone and im very used to it. i guess im just not used to take care of someone instead now. last time it has always been, i just enjoyed myself and thats enough, but now i realise i have got an add on to just feeling happy myself. i goto spread that happiness to everyone and make sure they are as happy as me. i guess im just, perhaps, yes i admit, a bit pampered and spoilt, who just someone to take care of me. i realise it must have been a tough year for you then, having to take care of so many people. and in your own ways, you are still doing it now. i guess thats what make us like you so much.
i got to remind myself im not the youngest anymore, and i will learn from you and start taking care of people. i will see how its goes after a week or a month. here comes motherly giok~ how unusual and weird of me!
(:

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Friday, July 04, 2008 ( 10:07 PM )

mr ong is very nice (:
i was very touched when i heard he came down to take us on fridays and be our friday conductor.
i think we were good today cause he cut down the piece bit by bit and made us do all the dynamics. gwyneth's solo with the flutes and horns was VERY NICE! :D i am feeling hopeful once again. i hope we will continue to be like that on tuesday

how matter how much you dont like he/she you still must show respect cause you are younger.

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Wednesday, July 02, 2008 ( 4:30 PM )

yay my oral is finally over(:
but i was like dumbfounded when the teacher told me the topic, the price inflation? its like so recent! and the teachers keep stressing on last year hot topic? ): but i think or rather i hope i didnt open my mouth too big. and i dunno why my red was super red while waiting in the ava room. i really look like i apply blusher or something. it was really red, pinkish red. then i was scared that the teacher think i very vain or bad girl, putting make up to school. and i tried to massage my face to improve the circulation there. haha!
e.lit and oral down. 2 more to go! jiayou giok you can do it!(: