Its not Empty

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Tried to write a letter; In ink
I've got a piece of paper; But it's Empty

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Wednesday, October 17, 2007 ( 7:04 PM )

What a foul day! i realise my previous post got a lot typo error so i gona type this post SUPER SLOWLY so it wont have any typo error(: if it still have a lot means maybe i goto take some typing courses.. vivian is already suggesting me to take decision courses but i cant decide things at all, regardless big or small /: (YAY! typing so far so good)

anyway back to why was today a foul day. my exam papers today are all bad and poor. and if i may add full of rubbish and **** but luckily i passed my higher chinese which some seem to fail which was pretty scary. and my poor lips haven recover. its realy taking its own sweet time, recovering slower and slower.. then i went to complain to my mom. and she told me that whenever my lips are sick, im always in a bad mood. and i have thinknig about what she told me for the past hour and i think it is really true. so when my lips are not well, you better not come and irritate me. firstly i keep worrying about cca and clarinet when lips are not well. then i thinking of how it affect my look that day. then i cant smile cos cracking is real pain. which means i cant laugh. and also i cant eat certain food like spicy or too salty or anything that might irritate my lipsa nd make it worse. all these made me angry and sad and emo and hence... bad mood, bad day.
hais i expect more bad mood days to come till sec4 till i step down..
limin had passed me the aqmfs dvd today. love LOVE! and also thankyou limin for chionging the show and ty for lending me the disc(: YAY(: perhaps i shall help ty say more hao3 hua4 in front of na o.O
i know i should be thankful that i got a A for maths but others are like getting 80 plus and some even 90 plus in class. i know i must not be greedy. but after comparing i feel really sad. maybe i need to scold myself. cause i didnt manage to study for maths? and that time i was praying hard that i could pass. okay im greedy. ireally need to be thankful. i deserve a big scolding..
talking about chinese made me sad. el.lit was harder to score than i expected. i think i hear too much praise and over encouragemen from mrs chan. then i was expecting like... too high expectations leads to higher disappoinment. yeah):
and oh yes.. iwas talknig to mountain on msn last night. and she told me to dream about her and guess what i really did!but it was a scary dream.. more of a nightmare. i was crying like mad in the dream. scary. not nice to elaborate. not at all. people involved are mainly clarinet section, mountain was the main character then got me gwyneth cassandra calista and lijia.. scary! when i woke up, i dunoe why.. i told myself to treasure mountain more! HAHAHA!

okay i wana go chiong 1 dvd of aqmfs(: cya(:
p.s. is my typing error better? i type really slowly you know then i just check my work!