I have a lot of stuff to say to you people. i got a lot of stuff to say to everybody. leave me a chance to speak. im always overpowered by people in class with their loud screams and everything. at band. weishan screams her head off going crazy. finally its my turn to SPEAK(: speak giok speak(:

First to you. YES YOU(: i hope you knows. you (: im so sorry. and im serious. i have never been so sorry to anyone in my whole 14 years of life. you broke the record again darling. what i want to you is sorry and sorry and sorry. im sorry for angering you. im sorry for irriating you. im sorry for everything i have done to you. i really promised im gona be much much MUCH nicer to you and i will love you more and more and more and moreee. till you cry for me when you leave next year (: okay? im sorry for always letting you down and disappointing you. i will say yes to you for everything. i will accept anything you gona give me [even if it is bad]. i promised i WONT run away from you anymore. whether izit you gona encourage me, ask me questions or scold me. i will be there. standing there for you to do whatever you want to do to me. Do cheer up. im feeling very bad seeing you so unhappy. i seem to think im part of it, angering you irriating you, making you sad. you must give me the chance okay? i promised i will do everything i said. and you must return me a long and nice letter okay? thats gona be my motivation. im gona read it when i cry during band or when im very sad when i got scolding from miss prawn okay? i will learn to be more disclipined and listen to you. i will try my best to work hard okay? i really will try to play and survive band as a third (:
love,
me (:

i will so much better now. yesterday i felt rotten. practically rotten to the core. im glad i went macs and missed my 2 doubledecks and talk to gwyneth and zhuer on the bus. i feel so much better now. thanks (: i love gossiping and telling people my worries. i like relieveing. yestersay on the bus home, i only cried. i couldnt say anything. cause i dunoe how everything gona turn out to be like and im DAMM SCARED ): but now.. i think i just goto learn and depend on myself and be a strong girl which is gona like take some time. i am not as good as cassandra though she told me she used to get scolding a lot and how.. she was last time. but i think im worst than her. Cassandra CAN play really really well (: YES! even though her clarinet is spolied she still can PLAY! Cassandra is goody good good. my ASL (:

June Ng. i practically love her. my new darling June Ng is loved by GIOK(: i call her xiao xin ( be careful) who ask her call me xiao qing o.o HA! she's called june ng xin hui after all. XIAO XIN! thanks for being my food supplier. you are my mountain number 2. you are the one that i can go crazy with (: i gona make you hardworking and smart smart so next year we can get i not good class together! you pretty freak. im amazed by your neoprints. next time iwant to take with you! and june ng practically got big eyes and long eye lashes! rahh. my new idol(:

love,
GIOK the PRO

Regina lim makes fun of me. she laughs at me is okay. but she made the whole sqad laugh at me. highly embarrassing! OKAY! im gona train my low voice. mountain suggests a voice break which is awful ): nvm even if i cant get my low voice i will get my loud voice. (: i cant do Ker or wadever its called. im retarded. i cant rmb what is what. then i m always slower than the whole squad. she say i look like stepping on ants. but the truth is bcos i dunoe what command she shout, so i just do small movement so even if i do wrongly i dont look so obivous and out. but still, she's a nice pretty[ nice eyes, thats the most important] SC(: she got her way to make my golden mouth open and say timing. kudos to me and regina lim! YEAH! (: i like drills a bit better now cause im truly amazed by the echo in our timing when we did drilss today. i feel so happy thinking about it now (: GIOK is a happy cheerful girl! Jiayou (:

i had my 1st section recess. guess it was okay? now not as good as i thought i will turn out to be like. cassandra really fit into the picture. the sec1 and 2. she really fit in and look like some sec1 and 2. thats good(: i dun like too tall people o.o

thanks nat! thanks for writing me the letter during the squad talk (: i like it. i didnt take it as any critism. i take it as encouragement and motivation(: anyway you wrote nice things to me not some awful critism(: Dont worry you are loved by GIOK the PRO too (:

LONG POST. WOW (: