Its not Empty

e m P t Y

Tried to write a letter; In ink
I've got a piece of paper; But it's Empty

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Sunday, March 25, 2007 ( 4:28 PM )

im not tt childish as to hate miss sia or leonie.

i mean i understand that leonie scolds for my own good. she's being strict for my own good. she treasures every single minute and second of band prac [ i mean every minute and second tt i say] she really wana helps us or something. i mean i can begin to see and feel it.

but still, i seems a bit retarded and cant take in wad she taught wen everyone else has taken in?! i dunoe. maybe i wasnt paying attention or was i too tired? playing clarinet for 6 consecutive 6 days is not tt easy. my ulcers cant even heal but turn for the worst instead ): sunday is my own self prac when i get to figure out my notes and do everything in my own pace. soo, its a non stop prac every single day. my ulcers seems to be getting bigger and bigger. i dunoe wad to do. i finally got the mood to work hard ((; im very motivated by the fact tt NBC can go ABROAD ((; i wana enter that competition. its like .. so COOL! i mean .. ABROAD! national band competition 我看上你了！

band takes up all my time. no time for homework. i shouldnt be here blogging now. in fact i shouldnt be using the computer at all?! been addicted since my broadband came. been downloadin games to play. i lost my self control. bad GIOK!

my life jus revolves around schoolwork and band. sch and hw and band. how boring. wad a boring and tiring routine. im tired and exhausted. tired of it. tired of tt strict glare , furrowed eye-brow, and the scolding. i noe its really time to work hard. and i finally got the feel of it..so yeah. but i bet wen i jus start to get the ' feel' , i gona get kicked out. tomorrow is the day. SCH rehesearal! im scared 5-11pm can i pon sch on tues? i only can reach home earliest at 12am?! anw, back to topic. i promised i really gona work hard now. give me a chance,will you? dun kick me out tomorrow. PLEASE. PLease dun submit my name to her. i noe im lagging behind. give me 1 more chance and i will be satisfied. if i still cant, i promised to let you do watever u wan.. im not sure whether i will break down tomorrow. i got no guts to tink about it. i wanted to prepare myself jus in case if i got kicked out i wun cry. but.. i cant bear to tink about it. SYF= emo period. tt's wad melissa told me. and its really true.

merry widow.

its a much nicer

more interesting song

and of course ..

much much much..

harder song..

from a 3 page with big big visible notes to a 5 page small notes all cramp into a A4 piece paper as if it needs another 5 pages. Give me a break. im short sighted. the light arent helping much. the reflect and its hard to read the score. so small.. and everything..

MR Lin seems like adam khoo number 2. he trying to psycho me la. he claims tt it called motivation..i got a big shock out of my life. i was doing my work then suddenly a window pop out : hey, giok. how was band prac? :)

linwenwei actually show his concern for his students? HAHAHA. i was like.. HUHH?!

okay i did a long post(: shall go think about my compo. i jus realised i dunoe the places of the school after 1 year plus here. where is the extension block huhh and the butterfly garden? our sch got garden mehh? and the office block too..ya shall go tink about it now ..